i wrote something here and then buried it with more art posts and kind of had an oops moment that people may not see it.

as it says there, i've been depressed ! and i moved to twitter for a while because i felt like i wanted to socialize there and it was fun for a while... but, now i feel like it no longer benefits me, especially as an artist. i felt more pressured to be funny in a way that matched everyone else and not myself. i felt like i had to pander to an audience and meet standards i set for myself because i got caught up in tying my self worth to how many followers i have.

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that is not something i want to continue! and i missed being here, posting here and responding to comments. i can get socially burnt out easily, but i've always cared deeply about those who choose to follow me and support my artistic journey. im glad that i've been able to inspire people. that was my original goal: to make art that resonates with people and hopefully they'll find my little corner on the internet and find comfort and enjoyment in my art.

there are people here whose usernames i can recognize easily and they'll talk about how they've been following me for years and i will get all sappy over it because Wow first off thank you secondly some of yall have been here for a whiiiile and i can't thank you enough for it. it means a lot in ways that have me struggling to find the right words for it, and i end up saying the same stuff over and over again but it never loses meaning.

i want to create for myself because when it's for me it's the best i can offer. i want to draw because i like it. i want to draw because it's fun. and i want people to find joy in that. that's all i could ever ask for. ^_^