i wrote something here and then buried it with more art posts and kind of had an oops moment that people may not see it.

as it says there, i've been depressed ! and i moved to twitter for a while because i felt like i wanted to socialize there and it was fun for a while... but, now i feel like it no longer benefits me, especially as an artist. i felt more pressured to be funny in a way that matched everyone else and not myself. i felt like i had to pander to an audience and meet standards i set for myself because i got caught up in tying my self worth to how many followers i have.

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that is not something i want to continue! and i missed being here, posting here and responding to comments. i can get socially burnt out easily, but i've always cared deeply about those who choose to follow me and support my artistic journey. im glad that i've been able to inspire people. that was my original goal: to make art that resonates with people and hopefully they'll find my little corner on the internet and find comfort and enjoyment in my art.

there are people here whose usernames i can recognize easily and they'll talk about how they've been following me for years and i will get all sappy over it because Wow first off thank you secondly some of yall have been here for a whiiiile and i can't thank you enough for it. it means a lot in ways that have me struggling to find the right words for it, and i end up saying the same stuff over and over again but it never loses meaning.

i want to create for myself because when it's for me it's the best i can offer. i want to draw because i like it. i want to draw because it's fun. and i want people to find joy in that. that's all i could ever ask for. ^_^

lately i havent been one to engage with my following due to introversion and exhaustion from fitting with an algorithm, which newgrounds doesn't have much of.. but still, i've strayed away from posting much fanart unless it's a genuine fixation of mine. i've gotten up to 792 followers as of now, which im very thankful for! even if i don't speak much, i cherish the fact that ive been able to share my art and have it resonate with people.

my main question to those reading is this: why did you begin following me? is it my style? was it for a specific fandom or do you enjoy seeing my commission work, my ocs, or are you here for anything? also, is there anything you all would like to see from me? any critiques?

ive noticed in my thumbnails that the characters drawn are usually facing the same angle, which im currently working on now. im also focused on character design (mainly adoptables and doing what i please, it's not professional by any means) but i recognize that im lacking in aspects like backgrounds and perspective ^^; anything helps! it's good to reach out for second opinions from time to time.

maintaining consistency and socializing often is hard for me. it's unfortunate and takes out the 'social' from 'social media,' but i do like to create what i please. i miss connecting with people, my audience, and the people who have been supporting me for years now. i run out of words to say and ways to say thank you, but sincerely, thank you to those who have stuck around for a while. i appreciate it more than you guys could ever imagine. <3

THANK YOU ALL FOR 700+ FOLLOWERS!! it makes me really happy that people enjoy what i create, from personal work to fanart, there's always people who favorite everything the moment i post them. i cant forget the newer people either, hello hello!! thanks a bunch for continuously supporting me, cheers

trom carbynation to DragonKittyiPod because i made the username when i was 9 and its cute <333 also ! tysm for 600 fans where did u all come from !!! yall so nice i love yall

I'M GOING TEAM BLOOM COME FIGHT ME !!

BIRTHDAY TODAY, SCARY ADULT. LET'S EFFING GOOOOOOO!

Thank you. That is all.